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When we started this website I was supposed to do the music and extreme sports but Frosty has been doing all the music stuff. So why the change? Reality bit me, I don't have consistent access to a computer to enable me to contact the bands; heck I don't even have a consistent place to live! Reality bites...
Movies are not what I came here to do. Living on the street is not what I planned either, so what, I plug on! I was born with flat frequency response from below 20 Hz to above 45 kHz but some jerk ruined my hearing a few years ago. I still have superior hearing but it is no longer "Absolute Pitch" a gift given only to very few of those one in ten thousand blessed with Perfect Pitch. Mp3 used to hurt my ears but now I have trouble telling if something is even in that rotten format! Music is life to me and having Frosty do the band interviews is like being on a pongee stick for me. Never had a paying a job doing sound when my hearing was perfect and was unable to afford to go to Full Sail. My dream job is to be Flyleaf's Soundman and record their next album, mix it down, tour, and be the official Soundman for Flyleaf as long as they are around. I didn't even get an interview at a local Jazz bar that's looking for a soundman. Weird thing is that I saw a Full Sail graduate ruin Lacey's sound in Orlando. I know I can do better than he did. Suicide keeps flickering through my mind. That's not the only thing bothering me. I am not going to tell you all the bad stuff that's happened to me in my life, or the stuff that's happening now. The keyhole view is that I don't have good prospects for getting a job and my health is going to the dogs. My last girlfriend told me, "With everything happening to you I can't believe you haven't committed suicide." I broke-up with her over five years ago and things only got worse since then. Reality BITES!! Look people, there are no guarantees in life but it beats the alternative. I am not angry at God for doing nothing to help my life. I am thankful that I have hope in getting to Heaven and every day I do something to make my life on Earth better. In addition to that I pray to Yeshua asking that He heal my ears, the rest of my body and my temporal life. He has not healed me...so what! I plug on punching out one tooth at a time working for the day when reality can bite me no more. It is not simple faith, I know God exists and that's why I refuse to find comfort in suicide, the ultimate surrender. My verse of the month is Ecclesiastes 9:4
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